Blueprints

I know it's difficult to believe but I've been eaten by a monster. I was swallowed to the pit of its belly and have stayed there for  long time. It's dark, and mucky and there is no glimpse of hope; there is no light down there. 

The truth there is no monster. Well, there is no literal monster. The monster described above is a metaphor for something going on in my life. Something that has consumed my life so immensely that I haven't even the slightest chance to update my main source of joy, my blog. The monster, is chemistry.

Oh how I loathe that class! I wonder why it is I decided to take Chemistry, and then I pause, take in a deep breath and scream. Why would you scream Dea? Chemistry isn't that bad! That's what you're probably saying. Well, yes. You're correct. Chemistry isn't so bad on it's own, but, I'm not in regular chemistry. I, being the idiot that I am, with all my infamous wisdom decided that you know what, I would take Chemistry AP. This means that after Chemistry 30 (which was a difficult course in itself) I would work on 35 which ends on April 11th, and then one month later I would write the AP exam in which you only have one shot, and should you fail, well it's sucks to be you because nobody on the AP board wants to see you succeed anyways. Urgh, every time I reflect on my AP decisions I feel sick. I wish I knew then what I know now. 

I find it so difficult to decide my future. I thought I had it all figured out. Although I didn't factor in all the changes that I underwent. I am like the seasons, always changing. And, as cliche as that sounds, it's true. And whether I'd like to admit it or not, I have no idea what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, and that scares me. I'm afraid I'm going to pick something and be unhappy. I'm afraid that I may not be able to financially support myself and my dreams by following what my heart desires. I'm afraid of letting down those around me, but most importantly myself. I'm afraid that I'm going to become a large failure and that my life will have been a waste. 

There is just so much stress in my life right now. Chemistry is so stressful. We move so quickly. I will be glad when this is all over and I can ‘absolutely posetutely’ say, that I am not going into a field where sciences are heavily involved. After taking all the science routes my high school had to offer I’ve realized I really don’t enjoy it. Sure, there were some aspects from each that I enjoyed separately but nothing as a collective whole. 

Recently, I’ve discovered how much I really enjoy writing. The very first thing I wanted to become was a writer, so I’ve touched back to my young roots and picked up writing again. It makes me feel happy.  I love all the thrills of writing. I love the ups and downs. My brother occasionally asks me why I out so much time into this blog. He says what’s the point in putting in all that hard work when I don’t even have a large following. What he fails to comprehend is that I write this blog for myself. Yes, it’s nice to have an audience, but when the sun goes down and everyone is off to bed, this blog is about me; it’s for me, it’s an escape from reality. Although it’s ironic I say that when the majority of the things I post are about my reality! Well, nonetheless, I do enjoy it a lot. I do receive some positive feedback (some not a lot) and I’m alright with the small numbers, for you see, if I am able to touch at least one person with my writing, or inspire them in any way then I feel accomplished. 

This is why I’m very excited to announce some large news!faThis blog is going under major construction (both the visuals and the content). I’m going to direct this blog for life lessons (but I will still keep a section for myself because yes, I am a narcissist and I will never let that part of me go). My visions for this blog are large. I’m also tying in other joint projects with this one and in doing so I hope to reach many people around the world. I’m very excited about Wowzapalooza’s future,  and I’m also excited for mine.

And it’s been awhile since I’ve been excited for anything really, so this is a big deal and very important to me!

I've already got the pre-planning and such done, now all that's left is to give this blog a slight makeover and fill in the content.

I hope those of you who read my blog tag along for the ride, I hope that my projects can inspire you, and I hope that you in turn can inspire the world.

Here's to what's going to come. 

Xx

Dea

Halloween and all things scary - To me.

I am talking to you Halloween. I've grown up with this annual holiday; whether it's the movies the night before and the day of, or the TP pranks to the house next door. The little children ringing the doorbell asking for candy, or crazy teenagers who haven't grown out of it. Whatever it is Halloween is still fun. The night is supposed to be scary but for those of us that are faint of heart we go for cheesy. Actually I go for cheesy, cheesy scary, because if it was actually scary I'd never leave my house. Let's begin.

BeetleJuice

I saw the movie once when I was a small child, I think I was 10 when I first saw it? I don't remember. I remember watching it in the basement alone. As a child, I was always faint of heart, the slightest sounds and movements scared me. BeetleJuice scared me as a child, but it also made me laugh out loud. I didn't really understand what was going on, and I didn't even finish the movie. I was 10 and BeetleJuice was not worth my time.

Fast forward to 4 years later, I turned 14. BeetleJuice always played the night before Halloween, I decided to watch it through, the whole thing. This time I lasted but it was kind of boring. I didn't like the main girl or anything. I just watched it, and it wasn't scary. It was long.

I watched it again when i was 15 and then I finally understood. Though there isn't a HUGE meaning in the movie, it was funny, and it was a good Halloween movie. I loved Lydia's Gothic style. Although I have never become a fan of the guy with the small head.

Creep 

Addams Family

Never got the hype. The family was always creepy, and annoying. But when I found out that Christina Ricci played Wednesday Addams I fell in love with her even more! Wednesday was my favorite character and Ricci played her so well. I hated the mother, the father annoyed me, the brother was annoying. The majority of the characters bother me, but Wednesday always remained my favorite. She was so cool. She really didn't care about anything but was so witty.

Favorite.

Misery

I need to read this book. I've seen the ending by accident with my dad. It was AMAZING. I need to read the book and watch the full movie. Oh Kathy Bates, you talented scary, scary woman. You play such a wonderful lady on Harry's Law, but damn in Misery you were scary! So talented. She can morph. Misery will be my go to thriller year long. I only included this in the Halloween post because it is quite chilling.

Creepy smile. Haunting eyes. 

Creepy. 

Don't know what to be? Watch the video below and maybe it will give you an idea?

Haven't gotten any ideas? Well click here. That was easy.
Enjoy your Halloween's, keep safe. Don't take un-wrapped candy! Dangers lurk everywhere!

She said I have talent

I was given a very special opportunity. Something very exciting happened to me on Thursday.

Have you heard of a band called Hollerado? Not familiar with them? Well I have conveniently posted some videos of their music.

What happened Thursday afternoon? Well I interviewed & met them, and it was really great! I had a lot of fun, the guys were really nice, and very down to earth, very easy to talk to. I interviewed Dean, he plays the bass. He wore a a stripped yellow shirt, skinny jeans and a white cowboy hat. He had a full beard and was insanely cool, and very nice. Then again, I have yet to meet a hyper bearded fellow, I'm sure that day will come soon.

Anyways! I had to take a picture of where the interview had taken place. It was at the top of a bar in a open dusty room, where the windows were dirty but you had a clear view of the streets below. It was a bonus room, probably used as an extra for when the facility is packed. Here is what it looked like:

Sorry about the lighting and the picture quality. I had to rush to get the photo.

Here is the order in which we sat:

It was surprisingly cozy

Afterwards, I got a picture with the whole band. 

Tall Medium Short Medium Tall
Jake, Nixon, Dea, Menno, Dean

I had a really fun day, they were all so nice. I would've gone to their show, but you had to be 18! Well next time!


After the interview the editor was telling me how well I did, and this was very nice to hear. My first time interviewing a band wasn't as eventful as I had hoped. I was really happy that my second interview turned out great! Anyways, she told me I have a natural talent for journalism, talking comes easily to me. This was a huge compliment, I didn't really know how to take it. Oprah has always been an inspiration in my life, and when the editor complimented me I just had to bring Oprah up. I'm sure you can guess what the rest of the car ride was about - no it wasn't all Oprah, we talked about a lot of stuff in the media. I had a revelation that day; I still haven't decided my career path, but hopefully I will wind up happy and successful. That is something I look forward to.

As for the interview? It was 20 minutes long, I have to transcribe it all now. I hate listening to my voice back on tape, does anybody else have this problem? Well I'm just going to suck it up and finish it when I wake up (it's past 1 am.. and well this isn't helping my sleep schedule). I'll post the full interview when it goes public.

I end this post on an optimistic quote.

"Happiness is not having what you want, but wanting what you have" - Anonymous

Until the next adventure!